salam. This entry is abt basicly my life as a fast tracker in dq. When ppl say i wasnt too sentimental abt dq, n tat i dnt love dq.. Well, i hv my own way of seeing it. Bt if it wasnt for dq, i cldnt ever b of wat i am tdy. Thank You Allah.
So 'BEYOND THE FIRST' was our tagline when we were bored n didnt noe wat to do. For those do not noe, DQ set up a new programme this year under persijilan which is called Fast Track, where they allow u to memorize the quran for 9 months (of course u cant take holidays like the normal ones do). This year is basicly the pioneer year, n for startes there is only 7 of us for banat (me, syifa, hafiza, sarah, fatimah, aisyah, n atifah). We became close when at one time there was only 7 of us living in dq while budak diploma n persijilan all had their holidays. So yes, it was during tat time tat we played with each other sambil menjerit2 during the evening, we went by the lake n sing along some nasyid while eating oreos, we even had 'jaguh kampung' amongs the seven of us. Those memories..i cherished (well tat was the gud part)
wat no one noes is, wat we ve been thru deep down. At first when we entered the programme, ppl say things like we dnt love dq n hoped to get out of there fast. We were said to leave our friends behind (its not tat we did tat on purpose, our muqarrar is 15 juz weh n rasa nak tersabut otak je hafal laju2). The feeling when we had to stay close together bcuz there were only 7 of us dq while everybody else enjoyed their holidays. N the fact tat when one of us cried bcuz she cldnt handle the presure of memorizing 10 pages a day. Plus the pressure adds up when ustzh farhana stormed out of the room bcuz we cldnt iadah properly.. No one wldnt hv noticed these feelings tat we shared, the seven of us. Other ppl wld think, ohh alahh budak fast track, lain.
I wldnt call the experience of being a fast tracker a traumatic one, bcuz aftr a while i learnt a lot from it. U see, being a fast tracker, i hv to do everything in a very fast mode. Ive to memorize n remember fast, ive to read books with a great speed, ive to iron the clothes fast, wash the clothes like crazy, n most of the times my brain got affected as well. I want to process things quickly, i was impatient to wait for anything, n i ended up getting angry if it wasnt tat quick enough to the standards tat i put myself.
Some ppl wld say, when ur fast u have an advantage. For me, i wld prefer to do things slower. Walk slower, n the world offers u great things for u to see n observe (bt not too slow ok).
If i get too impatient, ill get angry, ill get fidgety, ill get defensive, i will never hv peace. I dnt want those things. N this is a continuous fight, i noe. So please, pray tat i stay strong n win this over. Alhamdulillah i realized those things now. Bt who noes wat the Devil wil do to us n tats why we must constantly b reminded, n constantly b prepared.
Dear fast track, u do drive me up the walls. Bt life is a test, n i wld just hv to put up with u right..?
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