sick*

salam sejahtera.

First of all, rase mcm tah pa pe je tulis bende ni skrg. Tp nak buat mcm mana. Rase nye if i talk to my mom, she ll panick. If i talk to my sisters, they ll not b bothered tat much. If i talk to my friends, wld they understand..?

Aaaaaaah, saya sangat takut dan rasa sgt tak suka dgn spm ni. (this statement wont give me a ticket to get caught up by the police rite?). Next week chemstry n bio, boleh pulak g main2 bukak tv star world tgk 'got to dance' (astaghfirullah... Bt i adore diversity n matthew koon). Dan lepas tu boleh lepak2 dgn kakak, sbb sebenarnye takut nak hadapi perasaan gementar bile study. Bile duduk menelaah dlm bilik sorang2, bile sy menenung buku, buku menenung saya..hanya kau dan aku *yaiks!. Sy takut! (admit it wani, ur just afraid to be alone) *wah,sungguh banyak monolog dalaman dlm post kali ini.

Aaaaaah.im going insane!

Jawab spm mcm main2 jwb upsr, betul ke? Hampeehhh. Kata nak buat yang terbaik,nak berjaya. Tp bile tgk soalan rasa mcm nak muntahkan balik nasi goreng yang br makan pagi td sblm nak msk exam. Wat am i doing?!
Physics, u realy realy broke my heart more than u noe. Tat was the one science subject which the tc had full faith on me. Teringt tc mai ckp 'insyaAllah wani boleh, budak pandai, dpt A ++ lg.'

now.....nasi dah jadi debu....

Ive been sick these days, diarrohea, hot fever, slimy cold-mucus, headache, hidung tersumbat tak boleh nafas, gastrik, u name it. I noe Allah noes best.. Tapi, deep inside it hurts much more. Much much more. Wat am i surrounded by? (immitating hodgins in bones) : disapointment, dispair, sadness, dirt.. *dirt tu takde kena mengena.

Ya Allah. Saya berserah padaMu jua. Ni'mal maula wa ni'man nasiir.

*dah2, kena stdy dah balik!