2010, Alhamdulillah im alive.

Alhamdulillah, those words felt like a complete lullaby when i said them many times.

I am Here, 2010.

Now is the time to split yourself into two, and work hard with your mind and soul.Its the very year, that i want to do everything rite. Even though its only the beginning, i already feel the heated pressue inside me. In class, the teachers "kindly" asked each of one of us either A or A+. Outside class, theres F1, Hafazan and Debate. sometimes i feel like laughing, wondering what on Earth am i doing.

Just a few notes for yourself Wani,

Why is it that u study so much for? with just a simple brain like u, what do u care so much to succeed? and Alhamdulillah, i got the answer already (thanks for the scoldings mom and K.tie). it was for Allah that i want to gain His knowledge. its nor for the A and A+ that the teachers asked for, its not for some competitiveness in the class, its not for proving to the school that i could be in Maahad too. its for Allah. (keep this very hard in your head wani)

when asked, what is your real Destiny? its just a simple answer that doesnt need any brainstorming, Our Destiny is always and ever be with Him. its the nature, that the slaves devoted themselves to the Masters. and hereafter this life, it is our true Destiny.

What is so different this year? quick answer; i could drive! yes, ive been constantly reminded to plan everything that i do.though im doing what there is to do, i do feel that sometimes my life goes off the shore and got smacked down by the sharks in the sea. for a quick note, i have to be prepared in everything, and anything i do. come hell or high water, this is LIFE. those who read this and know me quite as they should know, must have a brief idea on what im talking about in this phase; Study, Hafazan and Debate (teh tarik 3 in 1). i was angry that i couldnt come to debate practice and didnt noe anything about it. i thought i was being dumped. yes, dumped! and i was upset that each time the studies will take my time to revise the hafalan, and somehow they will take up all of my leisure time, and ordering me to fall into deep sleep as i was so tired. even rite now i cant think up of something to fix this. only that i wished to believe, that everything will be alrtie. not that i noe HOW.

another footnote;
of all the things we have been through, there is many more to come. wani is quite low at the moment, in need of charging back the battery.

Welcome, 2010.

edited on 10th of January 2010. (cool date!).
p/s: happy 16th birthday to little brother, Arifuddin. dah besar ni jangan degil2. LOL.