Mafatihul Mahabbah

its the name of our camp when i first entered dq. it means, the Key to Love , Kunci Kasih Sayang, u name it.

i wont be telling the historic events tat happened there, nor should i recall it often in my head. most of them could give me nigthmares. but what im here to talk about is what the seniors taught me during the programme.

from zero, i entered dq, they taught me how to crawl, they taught me how i could try n strengthen my legs to pull me up so i cld stand up, they taught me then how i cld direct my legs to move forward step by step and finally walk. and aftr that, i noticed tat from walking i cld actually run if i try n turn on the speed. and along the way, i was taught that i cld stop, and pause while running if i feel tired.

they taught me that, (well no, actually my parents taught me how to walk when i was little)

and i realized, in life there can be various methods in order to teach someone valuable lessons. its what we call Tarbiyah (didikan). and the important key for tarbiyah is our niat (intention). k.Azizah always reminded us bila kena marah tu "tasbih dekat tangan tu, jangan buat gelang..rantai..zikir pada Allah. ikhlaskan dan betulkan niat terima tarbiyah ni. zikir tu lembutkan hati..", so people out there, jom kita refresh balik.. whoever once got scolded by ur parents, or teachers, or sometimes u think tat ur parents wont allow u to do something and u think its unfair, remember tat every time u feel down, or bad, ikhlaskan balik niat kita untuk hidup. tats the most important thing. think of it as tarbiyah in our life. because tarbiyah itu mesti, bukan mahu. any form of tarbiyah is a must, its not whether we want it or not. (tats wat k.zianah said). and Rasulullah told us, tarbiyah itu berterusan sehingga kita mati...

post ini seakan akan bercakap dengan diri sendiri. macam ayat penyedap hati nak bg tahu dekat tuan empunya diri: wanie, sila ikhlaskan niat utk hidup, dan redha menerima apa yang akan berlaku selepas ini. wanie, Allah dah pilih jalan ini utk awak. awak akan terlepas masa bersama ibu bapa di rumah, ye awak akan terlepas pergi shopping dengan kwn dkt mall, awak akan terlepas pergi sekolah n ajar budak2 debate, awak akan terlepas jumpa cikgu2 dan borak seharian di bilik cg zubidah, tapi Janji Allah Pasti Berlaku. itu saya pegang. wanie, sila jadi budak baik ye di dq. tak ada orang nak tengok tengokkan awak dekat sana. jangan jadi gedik di sana, dan jangan buat masalah di sana. hehe.

i dnt noe whether i have found my mafatihul mahabbah yet in DQ or not..but what i noe, is i will keep on searching and searching, until i found wat ive been looking for all this while (ape benda tu, wanie?)

*sorry, post ni mcm kekelingan sikit. sekian